Emotions Anyone??

We all have emotions! Many Many Many emotions. Sometimes they can be hard to understand. Sometimes we wonder "why am I even feeling this way?"when there is nothing really wrong in the first place.

I've totally have been there. When my husband and I got married I was still learning I could manage my emotions. I didn't realize at the time that some of the things I was feeling was because of anxiety. Everything after getting married was so new to me. I had a husband who I only had known for 6 months prior to getting married. I moved to a whole new state leaving my family and childhood friends behind. Lastly I had a new family whom I had to get to know because I only met them once before getting married. It also took me three months to find a new job. Emotionally everything was extremely hard for me.

I remember when my husband would leave to go on his hunting trips I would always start a fight before, or get emotional and REALLY sad and cry A LOT. This happened for the first 3 years of our marriage. So last year we sat down before his trip and talked. Through the guidance of holy spirit during that conversation God revealed to me I was dealing with issues of abandonment from when I was really young. At the age of six years old I was taken from my biological parents and placed into foster care. I felt scared, abandoned and very alone. That same abandoned feeling would come up every time Zack would leave for his trip. 

The last two years as Zack's trip approached we hadn't had any problems. God revealing that to me helped us diagnose the problem. So even when the feeling did try to arise I would run to God's word. This year I started to feel that way as Zack's last trip was getting near. The Lord showed me through his word that I was never alone and God would never abandon me EVER.  He brought me to Psalm 91:14 "...[He confidently trusts and relies on Me, knowing I will never abandon him, no never]. All we have to do believe and trust him at His word. God doesn't lie if he says he will never abandon us we can trust Him.

If you haven't read Psalms 91 I truly encourage you to do so. It bring me such comfort in the hard time and even more peace in the good times.

So in closing I just want to say emotions can be a tricky thing. Sometimes they can even stem from things that are lingering from our past. But God knows us, he knows our hearts and he wants you to lean on him for help. He will show you how to manage your emotions. Just seek him and get in the word of God daily. It will change you for the better!

God Bless