Just some thoughts!!!

I don't want to be someone who just lives there life comfortably. God has not called us to live comfortable lives....he has called us to live for him! Living for him can be uncomfortable and hard sometimes. But that is the life I want. I don't want to get so involved in everyday life that I am too busy for what God is calling me to do. Someone once said "God did NOT call us to be busy, He called us to be fruitful." How true is that?!? Just because you are "busy" doesn't mean that you are being fruitful....lets move out of our comfortable lives and be courageous for God. Lets step out right where we are and make a difference in our own communities! I've learned if God doesn't want you doing something or does want you doing something he will make that so clear to you! But you have to do your part and spend time with him and build a close relationship with him! So you can clearly hear his voice and do the things he has for you!

I was listening to a television program recently and it really hit home for me. I am single and I have never had a boyfriend. I am always questioning "God what is wrong with me?', "Father why doesn't any guy want me?". But I realized that until I am whole,confident in who I am and at where God wants me in my single life He can't allow me to be in a relationship! I am not ready for a relationship, I have so much I need to learn, experience and grow with my relationship with God before I can ever have a functional relationship with the guy the Lord has for me. It's time to start considering this season of singleness as a blessing and embrace it! On the program one someone said "Run your race full force towards God, then when you look over see who's running next to you"! The right person God has for you will be running the same path as you. But sometimes it takes you or them a little longer to get on the same path. But God will get both of you on the same path in time, (HIS timing)! SO singleness is blessing from God, so I encourage you to live it to the fullest! I know I am going too, because it's only a season! :-)

So that is just what has been on my heart! God is teaching me new things everyday. What an amazing and loving God we have!

Thank you for taking the time to read this!
~God Bless You All~

Back Home In Northern Michigan

                                                   

I have been home for about a month now. It was a really hard adjustment to make. I know in my heart I am supposed to be a missionary. But where and when is what I am praying about. I loved the being at YWAM Atlanta so much. The people and ministry that they are doing there is so amazing and of God totally. I just was so restless there and very unsure if I was supposed to be there. I wanted to be there one minute and the next I was so unsure. I wasn’t sure if I was where God wanted me to be. So after talking to the leaders I decided it would be best if I went home for now. It was an extremely difficult decision to make and was NOT easy for me to leave.

It's a big adjustment being back home. I want to be back out on the mission field so bad. But I know God has a plan and I just have wait for the green light to go. I am learning to be patient on hearing from God. More then one person has told me that "just because God is not doing in it your timing doesn't mean he is not going to do it". So I am trying my hardest to be patient, listen and rest in him. That is all I can do at this point. He is a good God and will take care of me. I just need to let him and not hold on so tight. 

I now have been blessed a part time job and I really like it a lot. But  I also still want to be doing something with ministry! So while I am home I decided why not get involved with things at my church. I now help out on Wednesdays at my church with a program called GEMS. It's a program for young girls to come and have fun learning about Jesus. I am also working with two other girls to try and get a young adults group up and going at the church. There really isn't anything going on for young adults around here....so we are trying to get that up a going. God is just speaking to me to be servant where I am at. I don't HAVE to be on the mission field to to that, even if I am called to be a missionary doesn't mean it will happen RIGHT now. It's all in God's timing, and his timing is perfect!!!

One thing that I love is the fact that I am still able to grow and have the deep relationship with the Lord at home. I feel like I am growing so much still and that God is opening my eyes up to new things. I am able to love my family with a new and true love from God that I didn't have for them before. God has healed from some much in this past year that I sometimes will do things and be SHOCKED because the girl a year ago would have never had that courage. I mean I am still the same girl at heart, just knowing the authority I have in Christ and standing up and using it is something new for me. God has given me a gift that normal everyday people might think is crazy or "Out there" but I know beyond a doubt that it is from God and is to be used for God's glory! 

I am enjoying being home for now and I am going to just treasure this time I have while I am here. (even if it was a hard adjustment to make at first) But I also look forward to where ever God may lead me in the future! He is such a faithful, loving God and when we just let go and trust him life gets a little easier and a little scarier. Having control of my life is something I am learning is not for me to have but to give it to God and trust him with everything. I am just so thankful to be serving such an amazing God, and that I can have a personal relationship with him!

Thanks for taking the time to read this. God Bless you all.