Wow....where do I even start?
The last five months have been life changing. God has really rocked my world. He has brought me through so much. Things that I thought I would NEVER over come he has healed and helped me through.
When I first arrived at the school I wanted to leave right away. I was so scared, there was NO WAY I was going to survive 5 months way from home. I had NEVER been away from my family that long and there was no way I was "really" called by God to be 16 hours away from them.
During the three months of lectures phase the first couple of days were the hardest. I did NOT want to be there. I didn't feel like I fit in and I just wasn't willing to try to make friends with people. I figured that they didn't like me anyways so way even try. But eventually I began to warm up to a few of the girls and started to let myself open up to them. God really used their openness and sweethearts to just make me feel loved and very welcomed.
But it seemed as soon as I started getting comfortable and making more friends that I started having these CRAZY panic attacks. I've never experienced panic attacks before in my life so I was so scared. Thankfully one of the staff members used to have them all the time so she knew exactly what to do and how to help me. Once again do to the panic attacks I wanted to go home. I didn't think I was strong enough to deal with everything going on. That was exactly what Satan wanted me to do....he wanted me to give up and go home because he knew the healing of my heart that was about to come.
We had three months of lectures and I enjoyed all of them. There is one lecture that stuck out to me the most. It was a week called "Father Heart of God" lead by the speaker Mike Berg. This week helped me really see God love for me! No matter what I do God loves me and I don't have to work for it. Towards the end of the week we took a whole day and just took time to search our hearts and forgave people we need too. We not only forgave them but also prayed blessings over there lives. This really opened up my eyes to see that know matter how much someone hurts you God still loves them. So we should love them as well....and trust me that was a really hard thing for me to grasp! But during this week I was set free from many hurts and pains that I had held in for years. God set me free!!!!
During my time at the school I just fell in love with God even more. I just found myself wanting to spend longer quite times with him and just wanting to sing praises to him. I could feel God's presents more than ever before. He really showed himself to me in many ways. God's love for me is more real to me than it's ever been before. The passion he has placed in my for his people is greater than it's ever been.
My dts has changed my life. The school is SO God focused and hits the area's that everyone needs to grow and learn in. They had worship every Tuesday mornings with the whole base. It was so nice to get to see people that lived off base and get to know them a little. After worship we would also have intersession for different parts of the word. It was amazing how God really showed up in these times...you could really see God's hand at work!
I would not trade my time at my dts for anything. I have met some of the most amazing and passionate people ever. The guys at my school helped me understand that guys who aren't really family can still be loving and you can trust them. The girls just became my like my sisters, we all got along really well. It was such an amazing experince getting to know each and every person in my school. And the leaders and staff were absolutly wonderful. They really cared about each and every person, they were there at any time of the day or night if you needed to talk. They really are called by God to be there and you can really see the love of Christ in them!!
GOD IS SOOOOO GOOD!!!
1 John 3:16
"This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers."
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