In April of 2017 sever anxiety and hopelessness hit me like a rock. I felt so lost, scared and I all the sudden didn't know what I wanted out of life anymore. It was like all my passions and hope for my future disappeared.
I started having panic attacks so bad they were bringing physical pain to my body. I couldn't eat, sleep or breathe at times. I had physical pains in my chest and I would go completely numb. After a couple of days I realized I could fight the good fight of faith or let depression and anxiety settle in and make its home inside my body.
I chose to fight! As Christians we are more then conquerors through Christ. Romans 8:37-39 says "Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors and gain an overwhelming victory through Him who loved us [so much that He died for us]. For I am convinced [and continue to be convinced--beyond any doubt] that neither death,or life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able separate us from the [unlimited] love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
I knew if I leaned with all my might on God and dove into His word I could win this fight. It was NOT easy. There were long nights and super early mornings all filled with teachings from preachers on television and LOTS of times studying the word of God. I also got out and walked a whole lot (almost 4 miles a day).
On rough nights when I couldn't sleep I would lay on the couch and have teaching from amazing pastors on the TV. One night there were to separate pastors on back to back. What was crazy was they were both a talking about getting back into or finding a good home church. We had been out of church for about a year. We quite going because the church was too far away for us with two little kids. But I took the hint from the two pastors and I told my husband we were going to try out a church right near us. That next Sunday we went and have been going every since.
Here almost a year later I have been delivered from the hopelessness and anxiety that once tried to take control of my life. It's all because of God and His word.
I know I've shared parts of my story before. But I want to keep writing and posting about it in hopes that it could help someone and let them know with God you can overcome anything.
